Never Enough

Lonely


I am so fucking lonely. I feel like I do not deserve anyone. The reasons are many, the sins are astronomical and the killer is time. I hate this. My self exploration and vengeance is dead. I obsess and wonder why I do not get, while others are wed and look for more. Greed y fucks.

Anger and envy kill. I may never see the one I want. Do I settle? Never.

I should just write my fucking stories and get the shit out so I will feel good. I ma filled wiht so much doubt I feel like crying. Wait I am........ I want to feel creativity so bad. I miss it.

I hate Dax. He sux. He got me into this. I think I have worse mental problems than anyone knows. I really do think I am tortured. I know it may be me doing the torture but I cannot stop. I ma never happy. I am never satisfied. It is never enough.


I am not weird enough and I am too weird. So, fuck em all.
Never enough.